Caution: not safe for work; mild vulgarities are found in this post. hah. LIKE YOU GUYS CARE!
So I did some self-reflection by talking to myself. Hah. No, I’m still sane. Don’t worry.
1) Do not ever miss ya prayers, dude! Who else can you talk to and never got your prayers answered other than Him!
2) Now you’ve got like 12 hours before it’s high time to turn in later at 01++hrs to complete your art prep work and painting! Mind you, ya got like 2 more boards more to go? Come on, it’s something you love to do, and what’s more – you’re super good at it! Face it man! Don’t open your bottle of talent and let all the water run out and get flushed into the drain yo. Ya get me?
3) And oh, great. 3 days off school. 3 farking days. What’s up with that? But oh well, you were sick. And that was for real. But do people in your surroundings care? They farking don’t! All they care is you proving your commitment through results! They farking wanna see results, get me? No, they have been giving ya support, as much as ya deny that fact. In a way or another, they farking have! So face it! Come on now and get enough rest and get back on your feet! Shun away your friends and spend this LAST day to complete ya LONG-DUE painting ya!
4) Remember this: your blardy painting and prep-work are your one-way ticket to your A Levels ya! Nothing else matter right now! If Nellie removes you from the list, that's it! Where do you go with one A Level subject gone? That’s not even a farking full-cert man! Oh let alone sitting for the As; that is as good as not sitting for it at all. Hah. So give it all you’ve got, and mind you; this is something you are good at. So don’t waste it! Oh did I mention a one-way ticket to your A Levels? Yes, that’s just the A Levels, not even entry to the Varsities! Wah. How scary, isn’t it? So buck up, dude! Buck up!
5) Yes, you missed your GP and MT AO Prelims papers today. But who cares! You’re on MC. So stop pondering over the fact your teachers or even friends are gonna shun or hate you for that! Even if they do, who’s deciding on your future? Is it you or is it them? Now, you’ve got only yourself to trust, okay? Yes, life isn’t all about our own selves, and we’ve gotta care for how others might feel. But, how now? Just leave all these feelings-related issued to God lah. He knows how to handle this. Just focus, focus, and focus. All the best, dude.
6) So you’re carrying the huge load of trusts and expectations on yur small shoulders? Oh, come on. You’re only 21 this year! There are like what, 6 more decades to live through and you’re fretting already! These trusts and expectations don’t come easy, okay? There are there for a freaking reason. There are there on your small shoulders cos those shoulders aren’t seen as small, weak, and flimsy. You’re gonna make it, man. Trust me. Trust God. Remember: efforts put in + God’s will = outcome. There’s still time. Yoha, good luck.
7) So now you’ve finally taken your real medicines and the drowsy and giddy feeling are starting to set in. So, what now? Get the hell off your comp and sleep! Come on, now. Wake up at 4pm or earlier and start man. Just hope that your last bro won’t come back home from school and start hogging onto the comp. Even so, ya got no excuses to no continue on your painting! It’s not as if you haven’t got your ideas started! Oh come on! Wake up, dude! Wake up! Hah.
Yours truly,
Your other side. Hah
1.33pm; 30/08/07